Do not, I repeat, DO NOT start living like you’re convinced you have aspergers.
Go to your doctor, get the ball rolling to get a definite answer. Online tests will tell about 99% of people that they have a problem, even when they don’t.
Aspie is just short for Aspergers. It’s not like the N word. When I’m talking to my mom about my condition, I say “as an aspie” because its a bit easier to say than “As someone with aspergers”… I find it difficult to speak so if I can shorten the word, I will. I don’t find it offensive. Does OP have aspergers?
But I got stuck with both and it’s incredibly miserable to deal with at times
I’m not having a good night tonight, hngh
Know the feeling. I’ve got both, so times can definitely be totally overwhelming. Just relax, take a breather, go somewhere quiet, let it pass. You’ll be all right.
I had a friend, a few years ago. She was my best friend, and I was hers. Many people thought we were a couple but we weren’t like that. I loved her more than I had any other human being… But it wasn’t a romantic love. She understood and accepted me, even before I had my aspergers diagnosis.
We met on the first day of 3rd year, in school, when I moved from Canada to Ireland… She was the first to approach me and make me feel welcome. She was the one who stopped me from going insane from the change. She was my first friend.
I spent most of my time at her house, hanging out, becoming part of her family. It was the greatest part of my life.
But all good things come to an end, right? Of course they do. She left for the summer holidays, and in the meantime I tried to reach out on my own, find new friends, explore without her help. That didn’t go well. I became frustrated at my lack of social understanding, and when she came back, I overwhelmed her with my problems, and she had to end our friendship.
2 months later I was diagnosed with aspergers. She was the first one I told. It helped her understand why I lost my mind over the summer. She tried to let me back in, but I was too embarrassed and afraid of hurting her again….so we never really got back to the point where we were before the summer.
I moved back to Canada a few months ago, and we started talking again on msn. It was like old times. I told her how much i missed her, and throughout the time I was typing the sentence, my heart was beating so fast I felt like I was going to get sick.
She said she missed me back. Finally, our friendship is being repaired. But it’s too late, because I can’t return to Ireland anytime soon.
She was the only person who I actually felt positive emotion towards. And that was the greatest feeling ever. I hope I can be like that again, with either her, or someone new.
Every relationship I’ve ever had with another person, was established because they approached me first.
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Thanks for sharing you story… I had to drop out of high school because I just couldn’t handle all the changes they were making to my education (and at the same time I couldn’t speak up because that’s who I was, too quiet and always went with the flow of things to avoid conflict or complications). Everything was fine (education-wise, social life sucked of course) before I had my diagnosis when I was 16.
I guess there is such a thing as too much help!
I’m not sure…maybe to a point, but autism is so deep and has all kinds of subtle things that just can’t be explained to/understood by others. It’s not a “You just don’t understand me, man” kind of thing….its just there’s so many little things that are difficult to describe.
Wow, exactly same situation, but it was 17…So I know how you feel. Hopefully you’ll get all the support you need to finally get your life in order the way you want it.


